simplicity

it's s turn to head for exchange. we didnt send him off cuz his flight is at 2am. made a call tmr wishing him bon voyage.

saw him online at early afternoon. he was at doha intl airport to transit to turkey. he said he saw the sunrise on the desert. nothing very spectucular. haha. =p

now that piggy one is not in school often, i dont get to see her. i miss her. but. she say she dont miss me. pout. =)

i am stuck mostly with wy, and mr. pms around school. haha. and of cuz, mr reddddddd.
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anyway, i feel that i have lesser and lesser things to say each passing day. no idea why. oh oh oh !! there's something i wanna post here !!!

over on msn

lc: well both me and qq feel that u look more feminine and prettier now
me: red has i got moustache.
me: he say i am a MALE.
me: RAWR
lc: oh i din pay so much attention to you
me: yah. u shouldnt
me: =)

p.s. red really did say i got moustache. i have a secret identity! i was a man! hoho.

today is quite slow. seems like the day is in slow replay mode.

everything is moving slow. brain works too fast. body moves too slow. haha that's rare for me, stony shumei.

i aim to clear as much as work as possible before storm hits next week.

went out with mr red for dinner before we head home, he has 2 midterms, 1 quiz, 1 report, and 1 pptn coming out on week 5. *shakes butt a red*

red got me a t-shirt and a "smelly" keychain from bazaar in school. i think it is very sweet of him. the t-shirt is in my fav color brown. and the keychain came in a pair. You can actually ask for ur name to be written on it. One keychain says, " stinky" and the other, "smelly". -.-" . i asked him if the person widened his eyes and asked who are stinky and smelly.

red: " yah. he/she ( i cant rem) did.
me: HUH! then what you say ?
red: eh.. for me and my gf. she is smelly, and i am stinky.
me: HUH !!!! u really say that ?!!
red: hmm!
me: oh nooo.. u could have said like for ur younger cousins, or nephews or what mah !! HAHAHA oh noo..
red: *shakes head*

and so there goes my reputation in school. i am smelly. =)

aye. aye. it turns out that the brown tshirt he bought was the same brand as what i got when i was out with sl.

showed off at home, and asked mommy which is nicer. she said ............


grrrr.. *pouts*

p.s. smelly says "teddy bears, clouds, and sweets" to stinky!! wink wink. love you, chou chou !

i am going zzzz

mentally tired, and unfocused. turned grumpy into the afternoon cuz there is lack of oxgyen in the brain. mood turned ok after talking to chee kor pek. that reminds me...

ckp: why dont u be smelly winky?
me: o.0
ckp: and you be fatty tubby?
piggy 1: 0.0

piggy 1: then what is he?
me: he is chee kor pek !
ckp: yah. i m chee kor pek.


ROARS. so funny lah. but i think ckp is too nice for him. maybe i should call him KOP for king of P.rn. haha. got mountains of treasure also dont share with me. hur. =p

and and and on msn

25/2007		1:28:22 PM		shumie... ahhh bad mood. go away		ckp		ckp, u want coffee tea or me?
1/25/2007		1:28:29 PM		ckp		shumie... ahhh bad mood. go away		I CHOOSE YOU!!!
1/25/2007		1:28:42 PM		ckp		shumie... ahhh bad mood. go away		woot!

SCANDAL !! SCANDAL !! hahahhaa

shuMie gives red a tummy pat. it's a arranged msn conversation. hehe.

oh oh.. after my class at 5, i wanted to wake myself up, waiting for red too. went to get myself mr beanie ice cream. nice. i like. low fat. lurve it. =)

*slurp*

phone interview with china company in the afternoon. and it cost me $41.00 for 30 mins worth of talk time.

so fked. heart pain. if i dont get it, lagi pain !

ahhhhh anyway, no big deal if i dont get it. I will just go for another one. but will be disappointed. since i did my best.

heart still pain.

feeling really tired and lazy now. the 30 mins took all my energy away.

irritated with dad who keeps surfing channels. 5 secs of all the channels on cable. dont know what he watching. irritated.

realised that i cant be bothered for a lot of things. the list keeps increasing.

shumie finds a need to RAISE to the OCCASSION. it might be tough. but, i will see it through. *ahem* i hope. i will.

Here are 5 beauties for you !!!!! I like them a lot !

absent minded me forget the important date. haha. so pai seh. hahaa.

"like that good mah ! instead of the guy forgetting, the girl forgets. So it is less stress for you, since i am the forgetful one."
"no lor. you always forget one."
"eh... haha"

ytd was a happening day !

in the morning, i went for my first yoga lesson. it was great. haha. a lot of ppl from all ages. sec sch kids who are giggling all the way, and middle aged couples. Yoga is ok. i m inflexible esp with my legs. otherwise it is enjoyable, and relaxing. looking forward to the next few lessons.

met xiaoguas to celebrate fifi and hoonie birthday. sorry, i cant make it on the 3rd feb. my midterms coming le. so have to push forth the celebrations to ytd. anyway, we took neoprints ! its like been ages since i took neoprint. we were all climbing all over the place posing in weird positions. like monkeys. and the occasional "faster ! quick quick ! no time le !!" haha hilarious. =)
and sorry once again that i have to rush off to meet red for ...

school bash. quite ... hm... cold ? cuz not many ppl went. and games played were. yucky ! condom sponsered their event, and u can imagine the games they have to play with condoms. event done in bad taste. after that, we went to eat at newton with red's frenz. this guy was thinking if the place was lau pa sat ? like duh... drive all the way there then he suddenly ask if we are at lau pa sat ? haha quite funny. oh yah.. for the bash, the sponser rep fell off the stage. no injuries luckily. but the stage is not safe yah. she missed her step and fell off the stage. alamak. sponser leh ! of all ppl.

erhmm..

thats all, folks !

*p.s. zhang3feng. this weekend happening enough for you?* hoho

i think it is especially important for couples to support one other for growth opportunities. it might be a leadership position, new business start ups, overseas work, overseas exchange.

life is abt growing. about learning new thingsf everyday. to have someone by your side to restrict the boutiful chances that life gives you, is rather sad.

i m considering going china for an overseas internship, that might lead to an future overseas work opportunity.

truely grateful that i found someone who is supportive. i will surely pack sharkie along if i am selected. i will bring sharkie to office and bite them. =)

thanks, red. but, this does not make you less stinky, stinky ! haha =D

die le diee le

i am so unprepared.

i've got to do whatever i can right now.

or else...

plagued with problems.

i've got low self confidence. sobs.

sent piggy 2 and r to the airport for a 6 mths exchange to ireland. the next one to go would be s to turkey.

envious.

Us, human beans, seek closure at some point in time in lives. It may be related to the past events that had a profound or troubling impact on us.

For myself, i tend to seek multiple closures for one issue. becuz i tend to seek closure from my heart when my mind is still waiting for answers.

Recently, the mind joins the heart in closing, after a honest talk with someone.

if you have unsettled issues with someone, maybe you will like to take this day, to clear it up.

you will feel liberty and freedom at its best.

As a form of appreciation to my dear blog readers, I am giving away 1 Nivea Body Whitening Cream. With UV Protection. For fairer skin.

No conditions attached. Faster tag me !!!!!

*p.s I am serious abt giving it away. It is one of those things u think u will use one day, but never do. Going to give to someone who will use it. =)

Was really bored a couple of days ago, started playing with sharkie on my table.

went for red's agm. got ushered here there everywhere at new faces, and hands. tried to be gracious, sensitive, and .............. gracious. ha ! nevertheless, this kinda events tires me. the crowd. the hallos. the how are yous. the oh reallys. the hahas.

tiring.

somehow underneath it all. i wished i played a more active role in school. despite a lot of things that i dont , and still dont like. ahhh but too many things happened during uni, in my personal life, that i do like to keep track of myself. so somehow still glad that i do have time for myself all this while.

i also understand that this sem will be a hectic one for myself and red. yawnz. getting tired. but will finish this first. with 5 mods. heavy ones. my work. yoga. red has his 5 mods. and comm stuff and work too. aye aye. busy busy. buzzz buzzz. thats the bumblebee flying by.

rambling thoughts. crytic mind.

words are words. actions speak louder. i feel safe with red. When the world falls, I know you will be here

jx Goodnight bb

jx fifi

jx sharkie

jx red

jx and shumie

jx haha

jxnight!

fifi wa,u acknowledge her shark before her owner

jx haha

jx i think sharkie very cute

jx haha

fifi it is

fifi hee

me really ?

me thanks ! sharkie says, Goodnight to everyone too ! *roars*

linking people whom you said goodbye to, isnt a sign of ur popularity.

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i hate to be patronized. If i am not the one to share that piece of info with, then dont mention a word abt it in the first place. Dont divulge a vague picture of it, and suddenly shut up. It is irritating. If you expect a listening ear, then tell all. It happened many times. And i know, who is on the top of the priority. Now, will you spare me the torture?

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made the necessary payment for yoga classes.

This sem will be a hectic one. With 5 mods. Red. Weekly yoga. Faci job.

i will get through.

Watched National Geograph(ic yesterday " the girl who lived in the dark" Living in rural china, this little yr, 9 yr old, has a rare genetic (?) disorder, making her sensitive to UV rays. SHe cannot be exposed to the sun's rays, and has high chances of getting skin cancer. When she went to the doc, she has 4 tumors on her face. Doc removed her face, did skin grafts, failed, did skin grafts again. and found out that her cancer has spread. She died shortly after operations, and attended school for a few weeks.

Watched Youtube " the 80 yr old children" 5 kids in an Indian family striken with genetic disorder, making them suffer from ailments of the old.

too sad to watch to the end.

counting the blessings right now. You should too.

at home

sharkie goes around talking, like a puppt, to everyone. Roars occassionally. Bites on the arms, legs, and neck of everyone who bathed. No no bites to smelly ppl. sharkie likes to poke its nose on my cheek, and swings its tail violently.

"hey hey. wait. sharkie wants to speak to you."
"huhh.. orh.. hallo sharkie"
"ROOOOARR !!!"
"HAHAHA"

sharkie says he/she is happy to make you laugh. sharkie wont bite you. cuz, u are .... HAHA... *private joke*

It was a sunny Sunday. We decided to go to IKEA @ tampines. This is taken on our way back, on the bus. Guess who followed us home?

dad: sweetie, sherry, superman, eva, emily,
bro: fatty shit

excerpt of our conversation

me: eh eh.. what abt shermaine? sounds similar to mine chinese name.
dad: dont want. not nice.
bro: not nice. i know a shermaine alrdy. u find one that no one has.
me: what abt erin?
dad: sounds like urine ! WAHAHAHA
bro: *nods solemnly* not good
me: wa lau. then what u want?
dad: hmmmm.. i know i know ! u call urself Superman !!! HAHAHAHA
me: *ignore*

totally peng. And red cant stop laughing over sweetie chua.

you cant possibly guess what brightened me up after days of mulling around. =)

pictures from overseas ! ! ! !

of greece, london, and downunder. All the places visited by a fren.

Weee !!! The thought of seeing sights excites me ! With every picture, i say to myself, " I want to go there toooooooo !!" =))))))))))

The touring spirit in me has not died.

Let's go somewhere, sometime ! =)

knowing that there are places for me to go, things aren't that depressing afterall. My goal. My aims. My dreams. IS ..............................................

It is not about the comments he made. It isnot.

Just that when u failed urself time and time again, what will move you ?

perhaps, you are the wrong person to speak to. i should speak to someone who can help. or maybe, there is no one.

And, i say v is damn cute ?!!!!! i want to pinch his cheeks.

Today, outside class.

v: ................ wah.. not bad * eyes following a girl*
me: huh.... * eyes the girl up and down* hmm.. yah quite chio from the back. I didnt see the face. Aiyah. YOU ! why didnt u tell me to look earlier?
v: i also didnt see face. I see boobs only.
me and piggy 1: ROAR !!!!!

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met shiling to catch up. bought a cool design T-shirt. definitely worth the money. =) I will wear it soon. heh. i m a show-off. haha. weeeee ~

Had the worst nightmare in recent months. I seldom dream. I had one last night, and it wasnt a good one. Probably becuz i went to sleep with a lot of thoughts in my head, worrying about school stuff, bidding, modules, etc.

i dreamt that i had a boil on my lower lip for a few days. I couldnt stand it anymore, and i burst the boil open. Out came a worm. A green worm. glowing green. Like small little beads. On elastic bands. Ewwwwww... the swelling boil went down. I told mommy, which ask me to check if there are any more inside... Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Mommy tells me to go the dentist to check my teeth, gums etc, in case the worm is parasitic. YUCK!

Disgusting. And u know what, it is time for my dental check too. Help !

The silly dream aside, school is posing a great problem for me. I have said briefly on the previous posts, i hope i will change my mindset soon enough. Some have cast me dubious eye looks. I think this post will not be pleasing. On second thought, i will keep my thoughts to myself.

Edited quote

"No use praying. You have to help yourself."

His voice resonates.

4 days of hols passed quickly. and i really enjoyed myself counting down on new year eve.

tidied up my room to prepare for the start of sch, and for the new year. It's real clean, and but it does nothing to give me the motivation i need.

sorta counting down to cny.

my new year resolution is still the same as last yr.

excerise more, take part in more activities, run my 10k.

all brought over from last yr, since i didnt do them.

sucks. demoralised like hell.

i need to change my mindset. i dont know how to. i know i am a pain in the ass. but. if i dont change my mindset, the same old things are going to happen again.