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Life's hard

Tuesday, February 28, 2006
No one said it was easy.

This is a despondent post because i just rcved results for int. econs. i did badly. The marks were right. I got tricked by the questions, there were traps everywhere for u to fall into. It was not because if my lack of preparation, nor lack of intelligence. It simply was tricky to draw out the bell curve. To separate the As with the rest. And, again, I am not in the As. In the real world, I wonder how practical this how thing is. Most likely, u get to make a informed (if not well discussed ) decision. Sighh.

Every pit in life makes me want to give up. I feel like Life's pawn. I am no maker of my own destiny. It has already been decided upon. So, why fight? Resisting only makes the end more painful.

You heard of the Biblical story of Job? God took away all that he have to test his faith?

I think He went too far.

We have to deal with whatever life deals us with. Whatever life throws at us, we have to chew it, swallow it, digest it and walk on.

The key is feel as optimistic as when u started. Not to bear any grudges, faitgue, or unwillingness.

I would really want to give it all up.

For once.

bleh !

Break

Monday, February 27, 2006
Took a break from things. Needed the silence. Needed the space.

Concern poured from everywhere. Some kept me company, talked it through with me, shared their problems, lent me their ears and eyes. And, I made full use of them. =)

Thankful and grateful. Really.

It worked. Looking at things from a bird eye's view, I was so silly that I could shoot myself. So silly.

"It doesnt matter who it was. He has not fallen in love with you. He has fallen in love with Cupid himself."

Haiz. In all moments when I thought I maintained my sanity, I lost it unconsciously.

But, I do see and understand that it all doesnt matter now. It simply doesnt.

"It doesnt matter who it was. I have not fallen in love with him. I have fallen in love with Sincerity himself."

In all case, I let it fully bleed and now it is slowly recovering.

It was so weird. To lose all sense of thought and judgement when u r trapped in your own thoughts. Miniscule matters turned big. Blew everything out of proportions. All the the big things went unheeded. The deadlines. I am so dead. For the deadlines.

Assuring myself that it was okay, I can continue to live, seems to be more believable coming out of someone else's mouth. We trust the words of others more than our own.

Thanks.