simplicity

this article simply scared the daylights out of me. i am sure the poets wouldnt like it. All in all, i think scientists should not "scientify" love. It scares ppl. serious. would u want to be mildly insane ( in love) ? It's madness to say, yes!

Addicted to love

In the brain, romantic love shows similarities to going mildly insane or suffering from obsessive compulsive disorder. Studies show that when you first fall in love, serotonin levels plummet and the brain's reward centres are flooded with dopamine. This gives a high similar to an addictive drug, creating powerful links in our minds between pleasure and the object of our affection, and meaning we crave the hit of our beloved again and again.

Brain scans of people in love show that the old adage "love is blind" really is true. While the dopamine reward areas are excited in love, regions linked with negative emotions and critical social judgement switch off.

Heartbreaking

Painful emotions develop when the reward centres of the brain, associated with the dopamine high of falling in love, fail to get their hit. Paradoxically when we get dumped we tend to love back even harder, as the brain networks and chemicals associated with love increase. First we protest and attempt to win the beloved back. Panic also kicks in as we feel something akin to the separation anxiety experiences by young mammals abandoned by their mothers.

Then love can turn to anger and hate, as the regions associated with reward are closely linked to rage in the brain. Finally when jilted lovers are resigned to their fate, they will often enter into prolonged periods of depression and despair.

These negative emotions can spawn anything from obsession and domestic violence to stalking and even murder of supposed loved ones.

Do expect more posts. ur fren here having summer romance. which is cut short by her summer term in 2 months time. =(

If u guys have not known alrdy..

Red. use this photo leh. i photoshopped my eyebags away ! woootz. haha. how how. photoshop skills got improve? heh heh. 

Prologue: Mom happened to mention the birds and bees in the evening. No. not becuz of me. Becuz a younger cousin got attached recently. And fion passed me tix for Bewitching Attraction. Which I am going with red.

hoonie says:

erm i m sure ur mum wldnt encourage tt : p

shuMie.. says:

opps !

shuMie.. says:

TRUE

shuMie.. says:

like that how

shuMie..says:

erhm

shuMie.. says:

we seat separately

shuMie.. says:

haha

shuMie..says:

then 1 stranger in the middle

hoonie says:

no lor

hoonie says:

no use one

shuMie..says:

hahha

hoonie says:

some more u suggest go watch one

hoonie says:

die

shuMie..says:

1 stranger in the middle can still *ahem* meh

shuMie..says:

lucky i catching afternoon show.

shuMie.. says:

if i watch at night, and it happens to rain.

shuMie.. says:

then it will be " lei dian jiao jia de wan shang".

shuMie.. says:

生米煮成熟饭

shuMie..says:

then die.

shuMie..says:

haha

hoonie says:

Yah lah yah lah干柴烈火

hoonie says:

then 恭喜发财

shuMie..says:

wat gong xi

shuMie..says:

it should be

shuMie..says:

早生贵子

hoonie says:

白头偕老

hoonie says:

红包拿来

shuMie..says:

aiyah

shuMie..says:

die alrdy

shuMie..says:

what if

shuMie..says:

tmr

shuMie..says:

really

shuMie..says:

*gasp* !!!

shuMie..says:

hahhaha

shuMie..says:

no larh. seriously, i not worried. yah.

shuMie..says:

haha.. no larh. i not worried cuz at most run out of cinema

shuMie..says:

and scream molest only marh

hoonie says:

then just 拜堂

hoonie says:

and bai 酒席

hoonie says:

np one.. don’t worry

shuMie..says:

orh

shuMie.. says:

then i go print cards

shuMie..says:

later

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separate conversation with Red. himself.

red: haha.
red: so nonsense
red: maybe it is true also.
red: u better be careful.
me: *metorite strikes earth* ...

Sometimes, i think. do i drive myself crazy. or my friends drive me mad. *shakes head*.

Things ppl say. things ppl say.

doing a blog template (based on a std)

almost ready. =)

the brave and dangerous dies first.

usually.

but they are also the ones who have the most fun.

who would you be?


dad came up with 10001 reasons why i shouldnt go redang. Parents are protective i understand. his 10001 reasons all summed to one main reason. it doesnt matter where i go, who i go with. i wouldnt get the permission either way.

i understand parents will be protective. always worried sick for their children. i know. but still, at least reason with me. if ur concerns are valid, i wouldnt want to put my life in danger too. i will listen.

we, at least i, would not listen to the song the same way ever again.

I know u dont read blogs, but i still wanna post it here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! *shakes, rattles, rolls*

hahahaha.. the smile on ur face is priceless. though the expression not as big as we thought it would be .. but .. .hee. still fun ! =)

Yesterday met the YEP peeps at ling's place. bbq. theres not much ppl, those who are in singapore attended. a lot of them are overseas. it is not a bad turnout.

it has been a yr and half. and it strange who we still talk abt cambodia after so long. those minute details. it was as if we never left cambodia.

the peanut rice. boney punk. ray's muay thai ankles. hua lian horrible rooms ( ray's murder scene, rach's haunted room, mine haunted kid's room, the ah tiong's, poor david getting stuck at the lift)

all these. none of us have forgotten. every 20 minutes, someone would clap the hands and shout "Oh ! i remember.. that time in cambodia.. " and this starts another round of jostling and laughter.

All of us have a certain chemistry with each other. The witty comments. Those smart ass remarks which all of us laugh it off.

How pure. The friendship.

That again, such a pity. That this pure friendship is straining to stay the same, fighting against time, stress and commitments back in singapore. Of cuz, there are other things that strains this friendship.

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Quotes

At bbq pit
M: wa lau. who keeps taking my fork? someone keeps stealing my fork.
E: huh. u mean u have not started to walk around with ur fork ?

R (looks at A's shirt) : EEE week
A: huh ?!
R: Ur shirt. EEE week.
A: huh...
R: EEE EEE EEE EEE week.
A: OH. TRIPLE E week larh !
( EEE is Electrical and sth Engineering)

L: eh, R. u want wine?
R: huh. what's that?
L wine larh. u want a not?
R: eeee.. i dont want. eh. wait i want a try.
L: DONT WANT. u eee alrdy. i dont give u.
M (joining in the fun) : R, u want arh? come i pour over ur head then u lick.
R: wa lau. u think i bar girl ?!

these are the mild ones. there are others sexually explicit ones. which. for the benefit of underage girls ( like me) i shall not post it up. but hell, its so darn funny. talking abt wrong education system man. *shakes head*

had a absolutely crazy idea recently. It is shocking that frenz are adopting it.

It's all fun, kinda healthy, and downright mischeivous.

This is the kinda thing, i am very sure, that i will have bad karma later.

Help.

i need to do more good things.

anyone needs help in any way?

Help me reverse my bad karma.

Do a good deed today. By letting me have a chance to do one. *wink*

or is there a serious lack of readable materials online?

if u have any interesting webs, pls do let me know. brain is rotting due to lack of usage.

I have limitless freedom. And i got no plans for it.

Well, there are tons of things i wanna do !

1.compile photostory.
2.pack room
3.write
4.bake cookies
5.bake walnut cake. yumz.
6.refurnish room. a rug. a softboard
7.swim
8.cycle ( ecp, ubin, sentosa, pasir ris. u name it.let's go! )
9.macritchie tree top walk
10. crabbies! 3 for $10
11.collect songs
12. make jewellery.
13.

i have never been too overly concern with norms that ppl have set. And, regarding us, i've not put on the usual stuff that other ppl do. What use are those? Letting things to be natural; and the willingness to carry it through is the most important. But, of course, ..............

In any case, this is a tiny step for a long journey.

Happy first month.

from Gift From The Sea
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The only real security is not in owning or possessing, not in demanding or expecting, not in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies neither in looking back to what was in nostalgia, nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now. Relationships must be like islands, one must accept them for what they are here and now, within their limits - islands, surrounded and interrupted by the sea, and continually visited and abandoned by the tides.

~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh

The world of colours.

hoon: erh. so how? u like grey ?
cc: huh.... what ? what grey ?
hoon: u like grey ? grey color?
me: i like red. do you like grey ?
cc: erh.. no.. i like green.
me and hoon: orh.
me: hoon, what color u like ?
hoon: i like rainbow color.
me and cc: O_o

plans.

ecp with piggies
ubin with hoon
overseas withhhhh

read~ abt finance. go lib. internet.
play with stocks.
refurnish room. =) go ikea.

get songs. with frenz

bake cookies.
bake walnut cake. yumz.

read. books. lots.

do sports. !!!! swim !! jog !!

urgh. photocollection.


book !

F:Your eyebags really bad leh !!
* looks keenly*
me: huh.. really arh..
F: yah ! what if ppl think that i box you ?
me: ... O_o

phone gets cranky. Same illness. Cant receive sms.

That explains why my hp was so quiet for the past few days.

Received a flood of 15 msg ( i counted) today.

sorry if i didnt reply you. or asked u sth repeatedly.

you can help donate to shumie's hp fund if u wanna help. =)

it doesnt matter what she likes.

u give what you like.

there are similarities. and i see it.

i pity her. u better take care of her. or else i skin u alive.

Let me tell you what you came for.

You came to redeem yourself.

You came. To test urself. To see. If. There was any part of me. That you still remember. In the most despicable way possible.

Dogs growl. Lions roar. Fish snaps. Even blardy ants pinch. What about me?

I wont say it until I know it is true.

On the impulse to talk to someone. Trying to hold it back. Because, there seems no purpose. No need. Need, as in, by doing so it would provide me with some relief or psychological improvement or whatever. I know it wouldnt. It would only prove the things that i already knew. I would be just be putting myself through another round. And, that sounds terribly silly.

And so, I shouldnt.

But, the thought is like a rocking boat. Rocking back and forth. Banish the Thought and it comes back again. It seems unrestful. It is hunting me. I only seem to be deliberating on "when" and not "whether". Wise, unwise? I do not know.

As I said, i have no idea if the talk would serve any purpose.

There isnt anything to talk about. And both of us clearly knows that. And, i do not know how much to say. Would it seem like a bitch. Would it be too much of rocking the boat. Would it be too much of gloating. Would it seem too over the line. Would it seem to be forceful. Will it be unnatural?

Would the conversation end within 10 seconds?

It might. Then, So How? To talk or not to talk?

Urgh. Blame it on the stupid daisies. what the hell. It is all a scam. A plot. A menace in the making.

JUST GO AND TALK LARH. WTH. as if it is darn important and need so much thinking like that. wa kao. crazy leh, u. u freak leh, u. if want to talk, then talk larh. Need to think so much meh. *slaps* WAKE UP. WAKE UP.

I am going crazy.

can. can talk. but. talk abt what ?

the weather?

siao liao.

*boing boing*


p.s. The appropriate title/ending to this post. would be:

At E's party, the bunch of us looking at m's phone.

me: eh, who is this person?
m: Guo Bin.
x: huh? his name is Protein ?
x: my name is calcium then.

On the way to the resort

x: this kinda thing ( getting attached ) is contagious one.
h: sorry. I got immunity jab alrdy. Immune.

Around the eating circle,

x: It is not because I am hungry. ( eyes the satay suscipously)
x: But, I dont wanna waste food. (takes the plate of satay)

At the stoning session

(m carries a plate of food upstairs)
(m carries the plate of food down)
(m carries 2 plates of food upstairs)

c: ohhh.. i thot they didnt want food. They wanted 2 plates.
All: oh..
( m carries 1 plate of food back down)
All: !!!

there are many amusing things around you. Do you notice?
OR, if there really isnt, Perhaps, u should head out with me.
Confirm got amusing things one!

Satisfaction guaranteed.

I have something for the girls. haha. be careful !! HAHAHAHAHA

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

I wonder why the sudden surge of amusing conversations. I like it. Pls keep these amusing conversations going. I like. You like. I happy. You happy. Everyone happy.


On the phone with W ( unindentified fren )
w: eh, i tried to flirt a bit with this guy. You know, look at him. But then, he didnt look back. Then, dont even talk to me somemore. Either pretend nv hear me, or dont understand.
me: alamak. Y like that? How you look?
w: dont know leh. Just look. But he didnt respond.
me: wey. you STARE at him izit? Ppl is look a while and *blink bink*. You is stare straight.
NO WONDER he scared larh. you keep staring. haii..
w: O_o no hor. i got look around a bit. not so obvious larh.
me: aiyah.. you not power enough larh. must practice more.
w: huh. how to practice? go and sign up "Flirting 101" ?
me: hmm... I also need to learn.
w: ...

Went for clz gathering. too bad that i have to leave early. Too bad bad that operation moo didnt succeed.

G was telling me Mr J. Mr. Jerk. Truthfully, the Mr. is too good for such a person. If i am a guy, G is the type of girl I would go for. How dare that jerk treat such a nice girl this way. He nv die before.

It is so easy for a person outside the circle to see if you like someone. It's either you like him, or u hate him to the core. But, hate nv lasts. Love do. So, i guess, you did like before. =)


p.s. hoonie, i agree. it is nice to have someone you can talk to without thinking. Talk rubbish. Anyway, i know the things u say is not really true, and 70% of things i say can be discounted. But, therein lies some truth larh. You know what I am referring to right? heh heh.

p.p.s To Someone special. Hey. I am a panariod freak leh. This is a reminder. u know what to do rite?

Sms exchange with Twin.

Twin: Reach dhoby, where u waiting
Me: at e mrt gates
Twin: WC gate ? haha ps gate?
Me: mrt gate la
Twin: Wats a gate ? Lol

Twin arrives and asks what gates i was referring to.

me: The mrt gates larh!! * points to the mrt gates* That one not gate then call wat? That one is a gate wat !! alamak. u .

Twin: NoOoOo. That one is not a gate.

me: Huh. Then what is it?

Twin: That is the card tapping machine ! !

me: O_o orh.

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me: erh, why are you so happy? You are happy to meet me, isit ?
twin: hahaha.
me: i know it.
twin: hahaha. thats because i am bored at home.
me: wa lau. you good.

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me: siao larh. Where got ppl remember so many things one? It's crazy. It's not normal.
twin: It's perfectly normal.
me: huh. where got ? I dont.
twin: you not normal wat.
me: thanks.

And thus, i shall write to remember the events of the days lest one day someone tests me. So, i can show off my memory power.

M: Why are you so worried? You didnt do anything wrong...
Me: How do you know?
M: O_0


Regarding E present surprise,
Me: hmmmm.... what can I give him ? That is free ?
Hoon: A lot of things.
Me: O_0

Armed with the english language but cant seem to get the correct words to describe. Thus, borrow from other sources. Words of others.

shrug.

In GSR in school: ( due to confidentiality issues, names have been coded)

A: huh ? GAHMEN ? What's that? Where got such word? WEY. u guys trying to trick me right? NO SUCH WORD LAH. wey. wa lau. can you guys stop laughing? very funny meh?

my Dell is back. they replaced the keyboard. wootz. hopefully, the root of the problem is solved.

once again, i am won over by her words.


http://everythingisused.blogspot.com/

the feeling ! The feeling of something passing you by. The nice moments in life where you want to capture it with your hands, but just slips away between your fingertips. Like sand.

A desperate attempt to hold everything together, to stop time, I resort to Words, Pictures, Videos.

But, many a times, I forget that the moment cannot be relived.

Have we forgotten the gift of speech for which we are given?

Yes, it might be true that it is much better to keep the silence if nothing good can be said. So, the silence means that there is nothing good that can be said now?

Well, like what i always like to say, you are entitled to your thoughts and I am entitled to mine. But really, are there no common grounds for our different views to come to a understanding? If this happens on such a microlevel, and hereby we are wondering why warring countries cannot reach a common agreement on issues.

Yes, yes, yes. The past is decided, just as the present is shaped.

Probably it is just my imaginative mind.

It has taken someone a year to talk. How long would it take for you to talk? I can imagine the talk for the someone when it did happen, and i was eerily accurate. It never bothered me when it was going to happen.

I cant imagine the talk with you.

In any case, never antagonize women. Firstly, you never know how it may affect them. Second, you never know what they may do. Women are evil creatures.

Honesty. I like honest ppl. Ppl who doesnt give a care about the world and speaks from the mind. Gives me a tinker of hope that there is still a future for the human race. We are not all ppl behind a mask. There are, ppl like me, who wears their skin around.

"That's the reason that i like her so much, lah"

How easy it is for two ppl to connect when it can be an uphill task for the rest.

i like to see people's reactions.

i really like the horoscope on straits times today.

Libra
Limits exist only where you think they exist. It is time to ask yourself the payoff for staying stuck in a certain situation. Then think about what frightens you about being able to live for your dreams. Go from there.

=)

my house !  

my house ! wootz

pavilions just outside my house. 

the sleeping place. 2 storeys. 1 bedroom downstairs and 1 upstairs. airconditioned, fridge, tv. tables and chairs. 

the eating place. the lagoon is for kayaking, algae infested though. it has the biggest freshwater fish inside. measures at least 3 feet long. monster.  

sunset 

sunset 

solace1 

sunset 

silver lining 

the ripples in our lives 

fishing 

fishing 

fishing 

the same old problem strikes. lappie is giving me the same problems. Beeps loudly before startup and keyboard does not respond at all.

bloody hell.

did the disk system check. did the diagnostics test. went CIT to reformat and the problem still exist. must be the harddrive or sth. but god dammit i just replaced my harddrive like 5 mths ago. grunt.

i hate technology stuff. The less i come into contact with them, the happier i am.

going to call dell technicians tmr. hopefully they get it solved. but what the hell ever since i got the lappie it is being reformatted every semester. sent to dell like 3 times alrdy. got my harddisk replaced.

what's the next thing to go wrong? !

shall not let it bother me. damn frustrating. ok. shall go eat dinner. get my mind off matters.

have a nice day peeps. dont touch those technology stuff.